a picture I took this afternoon on a wonderful trip to the greatest store on earth: REI

inspired this:

We're always ready to leave. Nobody wants to stay when it seems like there is no end to the eternal hardships we are forced to face day in and day out. When night falls, the quiet harmony of sleep is supposed to soothe our aching and tired souls. Instead it becomes a self-created hell of torment and anger, as you slowly begin to crumble between the cracks and silences of yet another failed conversation. And these words are shared only with yourself, so that you will be buried with this. The burden of secrets that weigh you down and hold you fast to the grave you have sought as an escape. But the walls around this self-proclaimed hovel slowly but surely begins to fall around you. Caught in the act again. Caught hiding, crying behind your deepest and darkest fears as they claw away at your sanity. And you search and search for an answer, a solution, an escape. A finale. But as the fog thickens around your fading being, it begins to choke you. Choke away at the life that you clung onto so dearly, the one thing you wanted to save, you are now losing.

And you can barely breathe,
and you can barely fight it any longer.
It strips away at your humanity, hollowing away your insides as cathartic volition is imminent. An S.O.S. quietly lost in the cold dense airwaves of the night. Alone with only the chilling call of the witch at sea, clawing at your vessel, laying claim to your infinitely sinking ship. And the vast emptiness is equally infinite, stretching for miles that the eye could never begin to comprehend such distance.

Alone again.
Alone we cling to the ruin and wreckage that remains of a once vast and wealthy craft. We drift, and we drift apart. And you hope that the silhouette of her ghost, framed to paper as you hold it so desparately close to your heart, will you guide you home. But if home is where the heart is, then the swells that swallow you are ever so inviting as you lay to rest at the bottom of the ocean.